• i walk alone in this lonely street..the day are windy like today too..my day always been boring..but that day are more!! then that times i meet her.. she walk of the street..walking slowly..smiling and wondering around..her red lips, her big brown eyes,her long hair..she's wearing a skirt n a blouse..she's so pretty..i walk by her..i even smell her sweet perfume..she didnt even look at me..then i stopped..i can't stand it..just by watching.. so i ran into her..say hi..u know what she said to me?? nothing..she smile..she bend her head..n walk passed me.. just like that..
    starts from that day, i always used the same road everyday..but i didnt meet her again..i wonder where she's gone..
    until one day..the day when my dad die..in car accident..it happen 12 months after my mom leave us..it's raining..i sit there..at the shelter.. dont know what to do..i didnt cry, didnt smile..just .......boring..and that's the day i meet her again..she touch my shoulder..she give me a paper and a tissue which say "it's okay" and she smile..i take my pen and write.."hi, i'm okay" she smile even more n write "i can hear u, i just can't talk"..now i know..she can't talk..but now i have her..i'm so relieve..my day changed.. like forever..i like her very much..i'm so in love with her..i just dont have the courage to tell her that..on december,15th, she write a letter and passed to my neighbour..i read it..it says
    "hi,sorry..i can't meet u today..i got something..today is the day when my boyfriend dead..the only man i love,n i care.. i'm sorry..i cant help it..anytime when i meet guys, i just cant be friend with them..i scared they will fall for me..i dont know if u did fall for me..but one day u will..i just know it..i'm so sorry..when that day come, i scared i will break your heart..so the shorter we're together, the lighter your feeling to me..actually, my boyfriend died after he gave his kidney to a boy..when the boy accident n brook his kidney..my boyfriend feel pity for him..he loss his mother in the car accident..but a month later he know his only one kidney did not work properly..and he die..he have nothing in his life..only me..not a mom nor a dad..i have a throat cancer..thats why i cant talk..sorry for not telling u..nothing important..sorry for everything..by the way, that boy name is zack..please if you meet him, say to him..thanks for making my boyfriend happy..thanks for everything..u really a good friend eventhough i dont know your name..bye.."

    like before, i just sat there..didnt cry,didnt smile..just......

    that man zack..is actually me..i loss my kidney and someone give his..
    this is just too coincedence..today, i stand here..on this barren road..flash back all my memory..infront her grave..not crying, not smiling..that picture always telling me to keep on going..just go......
    now i...................