• this is not a jurnol or diary this is my mind this is a little fantasy that 50% of the time i would love it to come tru and the rest wishing it doesnt come tru and there's a reason for that PS:get appeal to reason by rise against

    i don't no how to start it so um idk there's this girl she USED to like me and i still like her no i actully i love her and about some thing months later she finally told me i was like frekin happy until i saw BEFORE in her sentence then i was like so who care's if i can get a girl with those looks to like me then imagine how many girls i can get but i was like forget that i only want that girl (for now her name is not gonna be typed) now like 2 months later we are talking to each other like every day for like 3 hours i think I'm not sure and we've been talking about private stuff (and no not any thing about human body parts just love life stuff) she couldn't make up her mind cause she liked 3 guys none of them were me i think then she liked 2 guys which one of them were me and now i think she is going out with one of them but every time i tell her that i like her she Tell's me the opposite (but not like she hates me we will probably always be just friends) but every time she say's that i never felt any thing at all which is weird and i finally think i no y it's probably cause I'm in love with her so much any way as i was saying i never felt any thing i was all ways thinking about her at school and at home 2 and each time i do that that fantasy comes up and it goes like this. i join a band some dude from a record company comes to our school hears us play (which is me and my band) and he liked our music so he tells us that if we make a demo then he will make us big stars and he does so we tour and rock the world mean while that girl is in college and she hears about us and she calls me and tells me she is getting married and she ask's me if would like to go and play for them and of course i sad yes so i go i play i dance and every time i look into her eyes i always think of what could of been (which leads me to not want the whole super star life to happen) but then i realize it's to late so i just live my life and some times i think about wat would happen if i just grabbed her hand and just ran away with her (lol it's true) but every time that happens i always think of hawaii cauze it a beautiful place. and then boom i wake up and for the rest of the day i have to listen to my a*****e teachers or my punk/rock music so ya thats all i gotta say about that (tom hanks said that in forest gump lol )

    by the way every single thing here all very true not any thing is fake