• when i see you smileing face i want to smile back but i cant. Your eyes tell the stor of what you did to me.you were with another girl on a date haveing fun.Rejecting my invitations to hang out with me. All you said was "can we still be friends?" "maybe when i am back in regular school we can try again." Well i dont think so you hurt me really bad this time. My love for you may still exist deep in my heart but it is not the same love i once felt for you. I gave you a chance to tell me the truth but you refused and told me a tun of lies. You JERK. But all i could find myself was i am SORRY. i cried for hours over your stupid mistake remembering good time and rough time that we had together. i LOVE you i HATE you. i cant stand you i need you. my mind is in ruins but when i think of your face that once lay in my heart it is no longers yours emediatly replaced by the boys i was and still am too shy to talk to. My heartis raceing,my mind is thinking, my stomach is turning i feel like i am going to pass out. HELP ME i am going insane why does this happen to the good girls yet the bad girls win? They get what they want and destroy other peoples lives. All i wanted was some one to love and take care of. You denyed me of that. Now i am a giant walking contradiction. I tryed do hard to stay with you but in the end nothing matteres any more and it is upsetting me deeply. I trusted you with my heart and you ripped it to shreds. You say you want me back when you are back in regular school but do you mean it or are you lieing to me again? Maybe you can teach me to lie and not care because it is so hard for me to lie about my emotions. It is like you were a fake the whole time never telling me the truth. How do i know u didnt lie to me HOW cant i even think of TRUSTING you ever again? I am strong I can take truth. in my mind atleast i think i am.I could have devoted my life to us but i found out it was a waste of my time and love. I am so much more then you know me to be. My eyes filled with tears no more my heart still damaged. Scared to trust people and scared to play this game they call life.Scared of what people will say about me. I guess i have bad luck. That day i wished i could have felt the knife to my skin when you broke my heart and i never wanted you to see me cry. I see know you were no my night in shineing armor yet you were only the lowly pesant my heart thought to desire. My dreams came tru but sadly my wishes did not. I am always the last one left the one too shy and scared to try and be in the game of life. All i ask for is love and respect nothing more. This is why i am the way i am.