• Drowned in the Music

    I noticed today that while some people have great feeling over the losses and gains of their friends and family. People exactly like them can hold these feelings in. I am one such man. When my sister was breaking down in tears, I had a cool and calm composure. The music in my head was overflowing, and when I started up my MP3, it made me have even less feeling.

    Nothing but the Music

    Psycologically, I have the same mind as other people, but on the inside, I have a song playing 24/7. My lack of feelngs and resistance to them are all caused by my music. Other people must also have music searing their thoughts as they walk about the day. These people are lucky, their feelings are the strongest, yet they can feel nothing because they experienced it before in their music.

    Emotion, or lack thereof

    Any type of music makes you feel an emotion. The more you listen to that type of music, the more attuned you become to the emotion, until you understand everything about the psycology of the emotion. After this happens, you can feel the feelings, but you can stop yourself from exspressing these, or may not have the urge to express them entirely. As a person with much anger and sadness, I listen to music that has hate, anger, and sadness in it.

    Different Tone, Different Life

    Now that I have become attuned to sadness, the urge to express tthese emotions have been numbed. Yet, even with my shell of piano and beautiful vocals, some emotion leaks through my music, flooding my thoughts. I can supress these until I need to show these, but most of these have never been heard by another person.

    Conclusion

    Since you feel no emotion, you can stop anything and listen to another cry, yet not cry yourself. Please, don't copy what I have done. You need emotion to live a entire life, now without emotion, I am enveloped by music to replace these. If you have a word for the condition of music numbing emotion, comment it.

    Sera