• I walk alone all by myself wondering what is wrong with my life and then it comes to me like a knife in my heart.... realize how worthless I am and how alone I can be.when I sit in this corner and think of how useless I am realizing what I was really doing but dont even care...im not happy but I am glad that I did it and that it would be slow and painfull..waiting to see what color my blood really was always having nightmares that I got used to where it would be black as night......Hes never coming back, ill never pass, his life was more worth living....I was always so sad but I never said a word...and I am nothing more than a little girl inside who cries out for attention but im always trying to hide....I dont know what to do with myself and Im afraid of what I can do and how good I really am.....there are two sides of every human Good(which will get you to the golden gates) or Evil(and down you go)...the sad thing is there is a dominant part but you never know how dominant that part might be...slowly as my blood streams off my wrists I realize where Im going......but I deserve it.