• 1/14/09 “DREAM A REALITY” By: Brandon K. McLemore

    This dream world is not real; this love is not yours the one that I feel. I want to be with you in reality but this is too fake for anyone. I loved what I used to feel, your passion and sweet words to me. Why do I feel this now numb emotion in my heart, I guess it’s a good thing though because now I can’t feel any pain? In gulfed in illusion wanting to stay in my dream world. Strayed from reality by force from the lies of the real world. I feel this weakness in my mind so angry in this way I can’t control it anymore. I can’t remember the last time you cried this must be a new way of trying to hurt me. Feeling loved in my dream only because you were there with me so beautifully. I wanted to cry out all of this but I couldn’t maybe it’s because you’re GONE. Darkness controls me in life making a difference to everything and everyone that tries to help me in a way that I find hateful. This all started when I lost my heart and you didn’t help by breaking it into a million pieces. I’ll cry…I’ll cry for myself and myself only. I will never cry for anyone else ever again. I will never see anyone else for who they really are inside cause my eyes are clouded like my emotions. Cold in my room now I sit without love as a fire. I lay sound asleep dreaming my reality a dream that’s worth living unlike my now burning life style. Let these feelings hit the floor and burn…burn to nothingness to get rid of everything. Not one memory does not have you in it…this I find hard to close my eyes now because every time I close my eyes I see you all inside and out. I feel weak from your presence and dead from your touch but still I never have known you well. I wanted us to be but this reality is what lies underneath all the love is and hides the pain only for a short moment. In that moment everything feels so good and so right. Then it was taken away from me so mercilessly. This is my dream that we can be together being so naturally. But I’m in reality and my dream is just a dream….