• mom--

    i wish i could run away into my mind and never come back
    because its the only place that i am truly loved

    i wish you knew how it felt
    to be as powerless as i am right now

    i am sick of weekends that go on for months
    nights spent crying myself to sleep
    and days wishing i wre never born

    im sick of never being in control
    of watching you drive my life a thousand miles away
    when all i want is to stay where i am

    i want you to smile at me, even if it's fake
    and wipe away the tears and pain that live in my heart

    i want to know you love me and to try to love you back
    but right now im just so broken that i dont know if i can

    i need someone to care instead of leaving me alone
    and letting darkness eat away the light

    i need for you to stop and think
    that i am beautiful in my own way.

    (i hope you know how many times youve made me cry
    the dread i feel when i see your face
    the things i used to do because of you
    they say words can't hurt, but thats a lie )

    -sara