• I lie on my bed
    as these tears that I shed
    reflect my dark mood

    These words that I'm writing
    as my lip I'm biting
    confess the demons that haunt me

    The girls that I love
    appear white as a dove
    even though they are gray at best

    I am trapped by religion
    in this world I live in
    while Hell lurks below

    Hell opens wide
    for the committer of suicide
    since suicide is a sin

    So I am forced to wait
    as I strive for that pearly gate
    even though I most likely will fall short

    God's plan it seems is out of reach
    since I'm sure our contract I have breached
    being a sinner through and through

    So as I ponder
    I begin to wonder
    what waits for me on the other side

    Will I reach heaven and paradise
    Or be thrust into Hell as my "prize"
    Please tell me I do not know

    It scares me to think
    that I'm on the brink
    of falling into fire

    I never asked for this life I have
    and wish I could give it to someone who would have
    used it more wisely than I

    Now the day will creep upon me
    and then I will see
    what Fate has in store for me...