• The sky is gray today
    i am sick
    heavy breaths
    foggy brain
    feverish

    I lay on the floor
    and look at a ceiling
    who is now the ground
    who is a living proof
    of all we had seen
    of all what had been
    hanging over us
    like a sky
    that was too tired
    to even fall
    to even complain
    to even say anything
    at all

    where are you ?
    voices coming from under
    from a world under the ocean
    from a universe behind the mountains
    from a deep deep place
    between my tired head
    and my beating heart

    where are you ?

    Feverish ,
    i call your name
    i float outside my body
    and embrace the air
    it's cold out here
    and it's lonely to face gravity
    all on your own
    to face a ticking clock
    without having a body
    to hide away in
    to carry around
    a longing ,
    so heavy
    so old ,
    on your own ..
    without a heart
    or a brain
    to shut it down
    without a body
    to diffuse it

    feverish ,
    i am going insane
    sweating ,
    pain
    cold
    and many sleepless nights
    long hours of nothing
    but staring into space
    the space of not you
    the empty space
    that was never to be filled
    with a figure ,
    i had long waited for ..
    for a figure
    that interrupts the light
    and makes it exist

    i close my eyes
    everything starts to fade away
    i hear my breathing
    turning into whispers ,
    murmurs
    echo ..
    alongside your face
    feverish
    i fall asleep forever