• I am a fan of music, art, and romance. I am a mind within a society striving for a way out. I am a cute little puppy within a cage. I wait for the chance to go live like all other animals do in the wilderness. I love discovering things. I love to venture. The feeling of being in a place with no history, no illusions, nothing of what would taint the mind or body, is so brilliant that sitting here typing about myself makes me feel like s**t, and makes me want to go to sleep and dream of being in a better place. To be with nature, is to be pure. I want to live with the monkies and the birds... and my lover, Victoria. She has my heart, and I have hers. I desire to see no end to this. And may we be together, forever. But you see, bad habits, bad dealings, and bad characteristics taint the world, including your creations (such as music). I call these bad habits demons. Everyone has them. Some have a great deal of them. Some have few. Some may seem that they have a few yet have alot. Music is hard. Music is often created by people who should be focusing on other aspects of their life than music. But someone golden, someone who has few demons, can create the most beautiful, organ-dancing music. Most music will flow into your ears, maybe swirl like turtle soup in your head, and then flow out. This "golden" music that im talking about, sweeps your body off the ground and sends you so fast out of the world that you are in a completely new dimension... YOUR dimension. All of your most beautiful dreams dancing together in a sinking yet invigorating rhythm. Your dimension is constantly changing, just like the rest of everything else existent... inside your mind, or out. Once you are here, in your dream-like dimension, you are meditating. Now, I know alot about meditating. I used to be enlightened before some witch (I wont mention any names here) cursed me down and boiled my heart to a pulp. But anyways, meditation releases such thick masses of anger or depression. It lets you able to control your demons alot easier. I am looking forward to getting enlightenment back, I also can feel that I am on my way. Now, we all know what Mother Nature is... (Im not christian so you can say that she is my "Ultimate Ground of Being" wink but theres also Mother Culture, and she's suicidal. She is suicidal because what she creates will be her self-destruction. Mother Culture only cares about competition, you know, the more dominant you are the more you are successful. Ten thousand years ago, people didnt care about dominance. They wanted peace, and they wanted to live the way THEY wanted to live. But Mother Culture, one day, was born... creating greedy kings, and infectiously blasphemous priests. Why do thy curse thou sword? Because they cant keep to their own worlds, they have to have it all. Land, money, armies, girls, civilians, and even the civilians minds! This is dominance, this is Christians forcing their children to be baptized! But whats one guy going to do about this worldly infectious chaos? The best I can do is find my paradise and hopefully enlighten a few people on the way... One of my teachers were talking alot about morals, she brought up the question: "What would the world be like with no laws or order?" One idiot said, "Surely there would be chaos". The next question should of been "why?" But instead the subject was changed. The most gainful way of thinking is asking yourself questions that are usually unanswered... then ofcourse, using the sense of reasoning, answer them. You will find yourself knowing things that most people dont know, turning yourself into a caged animal. The next step in this worldly infectious chaos are the Christians taking over the government, since this is a republic and most people are not wise and resort to Christianity because other Christians leaving a guilty seed in their head, they are going to vote THEIR ways into the laws. There is already evidence of this happening... Emotions tell me to delete this, all of this. They tell me there is no hope. They tell me there is no hope because misleadened people ignore most advice I give them anyways. I am still learning, I cannot teach someone easily. An abundance of things I know are stored like files, deep files. Files deep enough that they require a cleared mind, and continuous mumbles. Most of the time I cannot express my thoughts because there is such a deep explanation to them. Its hard trying to put thoughts into a comprehendable format. Its easier just to watch the sunset with my love, and let a quick-paced embracement of untwining images, symbols, people, emotions, love, music, art, nature, the world, the universe, and the ultimate clockwork induce my mind... People of the general society, are covering themselves in lies. This is part of ones dominance; to go out and have friends that think highly of you, or more known to them as "cooler". This is one of the most disgusting part of society. Some people cover themselves with lies so intensely that sometimes they just become one. This makes life boring, everyone trying to be cooler than the other, wearing the coolest trends that everyone else is already wearing. This is like a factory that produces robots. The same model, one by one. I can see robots everywhere, im getting to identify what a robot smells like. Sometimes I can see actual beings. Sometimes I think I can but then again Im wrong. Some people get sad and they dont know why, like theirs something in their minds that are releasing, what it seems to be, random tears... but do you think they are just random? Do you think maybe something in their minds that see the harshness of society? Well, I dont know, but I would believe so. I sense even more...