well i read it and it got me thinking about all the s**t my mom has done to me. i mean, hell that s**t her mom did to her was really sucky. really. and i know how she feels. my mom is such an a** to me. most of the time. and no matter what i do its always wrong. i know people have said that, but to me thats how i feel. damned if i do damn if i dont. she yells at me to clean and then when i do she yells at me some more. if its not how she wants is i get yelled at. she yells at me when i say something and then is all "you always have to have the last word dont you?" so i dont say anything and she yells at me some more. i walk away and she follows me. and keeps it going. i try to stop but no! she has stuff to tell me. then fo course the whoel "im sorry....but you did........" s**t. ******** that. dont say your sorry then. she then wonders why i want to move out as soon as i graduate. hmm i wonder? she'll get home today and say that everything i did was wrong. oh s**t!! i didnt do the dishes! im such a horrible kid. gawd. and then she yells at me for being a bit mean to my brother. well lets see: i was a only child until i was 9. then you had a kid and he almost died. sorry if im a bit messed up ok? did you know a messy room is a sign of depression? yea well then i have been depressed since i was 8. wanna know what happend when i was 8? one of my favorite uncles dies, my only real grandpa still alive is murdered. i think my great nana died a bit before that. then i turn 9. well i cant go to my old school anymore cuz we moved. perfect. now i get to go to a school whose (even whenyou put it together) IQ is lower then mine. then my bro is born. grand. im actually happy. yay baby!! yea the baby that takes all of the attention that i had been accostom to for 9 years. all of it. from my mom, my grandma, my uncle and my aunt. i tried to run away in 3rd grade. my mom worked the night shift so she was gone when i got home and asleep when i woke up. then my bro gets shaken. i have no idea whats going on. all i know is that we're at the hospital and some lady is asking me if my mom has ever hit me. then i find out that my brother could die. i dont want that. well hes gonna be ok now!! yay!!! im so happy for that. but then i find out what happened. his babysitter shook him. well that day i wasnt feeling good but i decided to stay home with uncle. if i didnt i would have gone with him to the babysitters. so i feel like this is all my fault. i was 9 how was i supposed to know. well now he has to start over. all the docters say that he will never talk, or crawl or anything. well he improves. then my mom and dad finally get married. cool. they fight all the time. well they decide we're moving. great...i was 12 and had just started at a school i loved. too bad! we're moving to a town that no one has ever heard of!! your nan lives there though. great. i hate it!! well it gets a bit better. i have friends. then my grades go down. mostly cuz i hated that we moved and cuz i had surgry in 6th grade. so i have to take summer school and the teach makes me get tested for specal ed and add. ha! thats funny. well i get into algebra for 8th grade. haha b***h . i can do better then you thought. so i get 2 weeks in and then an evaluation. yea i dont ahve add and im not a specal ed student. whore. yea whats up b***h?!?! 2 weeks in and i have an A+ in algebra? huh? i got all of my questions on my quiz right even though i missed a day? yea b***h im that good. well then i start having problems. get picked on. a lot. then i have to have another surgery. well i miss 2 weeks so im out of algebra now. oh good i dont have to have that class anymore. well then i get to high school and my brother of course it doing great! why wouldnt he? hes perfect!! anything he does cant be wrong. i love my brother but my mom is always talking about how horrible i am and how great he is. of course it would help if she would stop talking about how great her boyfriends daughter is and how i should hang out with her. ya know shes a straight A student and a cheerleader and gets along with everyone and is the most popular peson in her school and shes just perfect!!! yea mom thanks. im glad you like other peoples daughters more then your own. cuz ya know i dont mind that at all!! i dont care that you like her more then me! why dont you just trade us!! then you could have the 2 most perfect children in the world!!!
 Komugi_8 · Wed May 30, 2007 @ 10:18pm · 0 Comments |
