This is another SasoDei fanfic. (Big suprise, huh?) Thisone in particular is a songfic using the lyrics from My Imortal by Evanescence. NOTE: I do not own this song, Sasori, or Deidara. Anyway... This songfic is supposed to represent Deidara's thoughts on Sasori's death. Hope you all enjoy.^^
Broken Dreams and Memories
~*I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears.*~
These past few days have felt like an eternity without you, Sasori no Danna. What am I going to do without you? I don't know if I can go on,, but I know I must. The question is how?
~*And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.*~
There's never a day that passes by that I don't think of you. You died in peace... Please let me live the same way... You're still here to haunt me, and you won't go away.
~*These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.*~
Every second I spend without you feels like another part of me that I've lost. You took my heart from the very start, so why must it be breaking now?
~*When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your tears. And I've held your hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me.*~
I was always there for you to tell you everything would be all right. When you'd fall I'd be right there to pick you up. I'm drowning in the memories of you, falling into a dark abyss... But where's your hand to save me? Somewhere I can't reach. As I think this I fall further into the abyss.
~*You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.~
Every day I spent with you felt like I was in heaven. I loved the way you would hold me in your arms and whisper sweet words of love to me. Now there's nothing but ghosts of the past we once had together. I still can't believe you're gone. Why did you have to go?
~Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it's chased away all f the sanity in me.*~
I close my eyes and lay awake wanting so much to sleep in peace, but I can't. I lay awake at night thinking of you... When I finally sleep I dream of you only to wake with you gone. It tears apart my insides and eats away at what little sanity I have left, if there's even any left in me anymore. Sometimes I think that if I try hard enough to bring you back you'll be with me... Suddenly it's so apparent to me why you tried Human puppetry on your parents.
~*These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.*~
I feel so guilty now that I understand the pain you were feeling for ever belittling you in my mind for trying to bring back what had to die. I hate myself for failing to understand you. I want to tell you so bad how sorry I am, but you're no longer here to know it... If there was some way... Any way to tell you I would. I'd take you in my arms and kiss away any pain I might have caused you... If only I could bring you back.
~*When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears and I held your hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me.*~
Where are you now that I need you so badly? Why did you go and leave m on this God forsaken Earth alone? You still have a hold on me and you refuse to let me go. Where are you to kiss away the tears I shed in your name? Why did you have to go? Why am I left with nothing more than memories of you?
~*I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone, but though you're still with me I've been alone all along.*~
I know I'm such a fool for refusing to let you go. I've told myself you're dead for so long I'd have thought I'd believe it by now. Yet you're still alive in my heart... So why do I feel so empty? I love you, just as I always have, but you're no longer here to say I love you back...
~*When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. And I held your hand for all of these years, but you still have all of me.*~
I want you back so bad I can taste it. I've been there for you for so long when you needed me. Now it's time for you to wash away my pain. I know that's impossible, but I wish I could. I guess it's true what they say. The best always die the youngest.
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