You see my life really hasn't been at all that good ya i had food, a house, friends and family but thats not what i wanted. I only wanted some one to love me some one to be there some one to care to hold me some one i know wouldn't let me go. I spent all of my life searching for some one. Then Hillary and I found each other. I love her so much but i can no longer be my self i cant have feelings or wants, I never used to get wad at people but now if any one eve looks at Hillary the wrong way i want to rip there guts out through there ear. I know it makes every one mad and that they hate me cause Hillary wont hug them I know she hates it too so I'm letting her do as she wants she can hug people and touch them or even make out with them its up to her its her life i hope she makes the right decision. I love her so much so I'm "letting her go" she can do what ever its up to her. she still owes me 10 years of life but its up to her and she is still going to the doctor to get a check up. You see I don't matter I'M not who and not what she wants any way so ill stay with her being by her side though I know she likes others more than me. My life will still only have one meaning and thats to try to make Hillary happy though i cant do that ether but it's ok I will try my best hopping one day to fofill my dream of finally being what she wants i prey some day i will achieve this goal and if not then my life will have been all for nothing. my life is pointless if i cant make my impact like a comet burnt in the earths biosphere i will be dust ashes to ashes and dust to dust.
Misery, sarow, longing for success, pain, lifelessness.
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I don't think your life is pointless....if you weren't here who would help me make sarcastic comments and who would help me make fun of Colter, Ryan, Annie and everyone else? You have a very important job mister!! heart