the day i decided to join the circus
Current mood: flustered.
was today. yes. im skipping college to be a carnie.
and i still cant figure out why it is i do that.... THING i do.
or why he writes me just to get my pity. he knows i will cave and give it to him. and my support even tho i HATE to give him support for obvious reasons.
and everytime "Heartache every moment" goes off on my phone... i cross my fingers hoping it's him. but its not.
and poor daddy dearest. laid to res for once, for final. suddenly the cold didnt matter. the petty things i worried about made me sick to my stomach with guilt, immaturity.
and just a word of advice... never wear 3 inch heels while walking in the snow.
well there it goes. i feel like i dont know her anymore.
and im changing my name, legally, to Dynamic Dylan. Dylan for short. that or TC. or JD.
speaking of names, i named my car stella.
listening to: "heartbeats" by The knife.
things that make me smile: Drum solo's, planning the future, new classes, my pencil, Matt, Chris, my new sense of style.
now listening to: "you spin me right round" by Eiffel 65
so i picked my new classes. as follows: History 7-8, Algebra 2 8:15-9:12 i think. 11-12.... some politics class. 1-3 MW biology 121. 4:30-6:30 T biology lab. im happy.
and i get my licence in SEVEN DAYS. still happy.
and did i mention? Guess whos going to Kansas? *points to self* thats right.
and my adventure of last night... hahaha. as follows:
ME: cant sleep. gets up and decides to use that tube of red paint. opens it. squeeze against the wall. nothing happens. *SQUEEZED IT*
TUBE OF PAINT: *SQUUUUUUUIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRT*
thats right. all over my wall. i just couldnt have that. so.... i got crazy. and now... well... i'll send you pictures my dear.
recent reads: "The last picture show" and "the school of beauty and charm"
me liked.
and now... falling in love. who what when where
WHY WHY WHY????????????????????????
WHY WHY??????????????????????
WHY????????????????
hmmm patterns.
sad to see english go....
walking down the hall. see some kids head. math book in hand. BAM. who was he? i dont know. i dont care.
love me.
want me.
need me.
complete me.
or just hate me.
 girl-on-saturn · Sat Dec 01, 2007 @ 05:01am · 0 Comments |
