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You can call me stupid or whatever but I've been thinking and I feel like I don't belong like I shouldn't even exsist. I want to kill myself. Some of the reasons are hard to explain or are too long to explain.
1. My father abused my family and left us
2. After he left he recently announced he was moving to Costa Rica
3. He puts his wife before his family
4. My mom is so over protective to the point to where I feel like I have no life
5. I have little to no TRUE friends
6. I'm ignored
7. I seem to make my friends mad at me for being, me
8. I'm talked about behind my back, and I know it
9. I'm probably the dumbest kid in my class
10. I scare pretty much everyone around me
11. I never laugh anymore, truely laugh
12. I have to deal with High school drama way before I have to
13. I'm UGLY D:
14. I'm depressed maybe 90% percent of the time, you just can't tell
15. My imagination is a nightmare
16. All of my thoughts are about how the world would be better without me, how ugly I am, or ways to kill myself.
17. My grades are slipping
18. Slowly but surely I'm losing the little friends that I had
19. My mom leaves town for work every other week
20. I'm afraid I won't have someone to come home to she leaves so much
21. I've slit my wrists before and I'm tempted to do it again
22. Knives have to be hidden from me
23. My family is judgemental
24. My best friend called me stupid when I tried to tell her I was suicidal
Basically I just make everything worse. Go ahead and tell me these aren't good enough reasons to kill myself, but in reality, just gossip is enough to make someone want to kill themself.
 RiotAtTheAsylum · Wed Jan 02, 2008 @ 02:39am · 3 Comments |
