I don't mean to make my frinds worry when I don't eat.....it's just that I hate the idea of sitting in a table waiting for disaster to strike.
I hate the pains that I get afterwards....the dizziness,nausea,weakness all over,the feeling as if someone is punching you....not to mention the coldness.....the feeling of being choked (that one is always so much fun....not)
I live on coffe.....all I had yesterday was a cup of soup and a caramel apple....I only had the apple 'cause hazel wanted it and deep down so did I.....I feel so weak right now....the headache is a sign that its working.....though this headache is much more different from the one I have had since thrusday.
all I had today has been coffe....half a cup of cereal and a piece of carot....mom said that I would eat latter on but I really don't want to....I reall hate eating with all of them.
I want to make people happy but I can't seem to please everyone.....kitty,nature and vampi want me to eat yet the people that live here want me to do whatever it takes to lose weight....I would vomit but for some weird reason my body just won't let me (v_v)......I feel like collapsing right now.....but I won't...I can't.....not yet....I'll be getting even more tired soon....I don't plan to eat anytime soon.....my body doesn't need it and besides....mom said that I could lose up to forty pounds in two month if I went on a liquid diet...I won't though....I'm not that stupid....I wouldn't be able to stand it.....thats it I guess....I'm tire *yawn* night
 yamiruri · Wed Jul 06, 2005 @ 12:50am · 0 Comments |
