zomI3iegirl: hmm
zomI3iegirl: remember when you said...oh i wish i could be with you forever & take care of you & make sure you ont die
zomI3iegirl: LETS DIE TOGETHER.
zomI3iegirl: BULLSHIT
zomI3iegirl: ..what the ******** even happened to that
Iamcluelessinnj:
i dont see you dieing
zomI3iegirl: oh, once again, you are right
zomI3iegirl: you always are
Iamcluelessinnj:
eh...
zomI3iegirl: ...
zomI3iegirl: ....just tell me you ont love me anymore..
Iamcluelessinnj:
if i didnt i would have said it by now...
Iamcluelessinnj:
but im gonna go....
zomI3iegirl: why are you toturing me??
zomI3iegirl: im begging you
Iamcluelessinnj:
if this is torture
Iamcluelessinnj:
then fine...
zomI3iegirl: thats what you want..
Iamcluelessinnj:
O.o
Iamcluelessinnj:
no its not
zomI3iegirl: then why are you doing it?..
Iamcluelessinnj:
im leaving you
Iamcluelessinnj:
like you said
Iamcluelessinnj:
because this is torture to you
Iamcluelessinnj:
now im gonna go...
Iamcluelessinnj:
jess
Iamcluelessinnj:
even if you were with me...
Iamcluelessinnj:
those lips would have kissed anothers...
Iamcluelessinnj:
i know they will
zomI3iegirl: logan
Iamcluelessinnj:
weather u decided to do it cause i wasnt good enough
zomI3iegirl: i've never kissied anyone else in my life
zomI3iegirl: what makes youthink i will
zomI3iegirl: i know you will
Iamcluelessinnj:
or because come next year a play will come and the stage makes all the difference in the world
zomI3iegirl: but thats diffrent
zomI3iegirl: because kissing doesnt really means s**t to you anyway..
zomI3iegirl: but for me to fake a kiss means the world
zomI3iegirl: & for you to kiss my best friends cheek means nothing
zomI3iegirl: & for you to kiss another girl on the lips out of pity means nothing
zomI3iegirl: & even to kiss me, means nothing
zomI3iegirl: i dont want to kiss another guy...
Iamcluelessinnj:
i didnt actually kiss her
zomI3iegirl: huh?
zomI3iegirl: dont try to lie to me
Iamcluelessinnj:
and when i kissed jackie i didnt expect to be getting back with you
zomI3iegirl: so you expect ed you'dkiss her more?
Iamcluelessinnj:
and youd really call her ur best friend when she is the one who trys to flirt and s**t
zomI3iegirl: so if we arent together & you kiss a girl it means nothing, but if we break up & youthink i will kiss another guy it means ima whore.
Iamcluelessinnj:
no
Iamcluelessinnj:
forget it
Iamcluelessinnj:
i gotta go
Iamcluelessinnj:
my brother needs to go to sleep and i need to get my step mom off the couch
zomI3iegirl: .....can i ask you one more favor..please...
Iamcluelessinnj:
hmmm
Iamcluelessinnj:
ill call you e.e
Iamcluelessinnj:
cause i really have no time
zomI3iegirl: ..you will prolly say no....and you will prolly hate me for it..
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zomI3iegirl: ...but kissing me means nothing to you..it still means the world to me...can you let me have one more moment with you....
zomI3iegirl: .....to kiss you...hide on you...
zomI3iegirl: ...and hear your heart..
zomI3iegirl: ...hmm..guess not..
zomI3iegirl: , if you sign back on & im not here, i just want to let you now, my phone wont let me receive call..i'd have to call you.....
im not gonna cry.....im just gonna disappear so i can die quietly...i think this is the first time in my life...my heart has actually hurt because i felt it break.......god...i know what all those stupid pop songs had been talking about all these years........this has been a false shift since the beginning....god....why do you do this.....is this hell?......god....i thought you were supposed to guide me..... god...where are the angels?....aren't the angels supposed to protect me?......god....am i'm i a sinner?....a heathen?.....do i deserve this?....oh lord...please forgive me....i will try harder...please...i don't want this...please....I've prayed almost every night since last January 15th...saying i was thankful...and the only thing i ever asked was to protect him...make him happy....is this making him happy?.....oh lord..i have asked to much......please reconcile my sins....let me....go to sleep....i just want to sleep.....i don't wanna wake up tomorrow & feel this again....my heart hurts...and it wont ever go away....oh lord...please don't let me wake up......oh god...where are the angels?....
i understand why you had to die walker.....i undertsnad why you had to die Kurt....i understand now....
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