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Some depression/good/ and weird things.
Oi..
Um, well what's bad about this week, is that I have essays and an Sol to take. I guess I have to work hard again. -_- But... lately, no one has talked to me in school. I tried talking to them.. but everyone is carried away, so I leave them alone. It sucks to be alone, because it reminds me of my past.
Past memory: Often.. I used to stay inside, alone and all cold. I lived in a apartment in Arlington, Virginia. I was 8 by the time.. and I didn't know that I had friends during that time. I remember fully, in school that I never knew my friends names, and my teacher always blamed me for things. However, I didn't get sent to the office. Every day after school when I was little, I used to go to Ymca. Ymca, is like a place, kinda like babysitting, but it was torture for me. Everyday... I was the only person with my own skin color. Everyone else was Black, and everyone all treated me like crap. No one wanted to play with me.. I was pushed around into the corners while people kicked me and called me names. I was crying soo much everyday, because my cousin would pick me up. And I ran out of the door, hugging him. I used to stay at my granddad's house and cry more. No matter how I tried to forget, I would suffer more than anyone in the family. My parents never knew why I kepted crying, but they think it's that I want to be with my parents, in their view. Such more problems happened later, but it scares me to tell it. Because, I feel all that pain coming back.
Well.. I know Jane never had never knew my feelings for her, but she kept me away from thinking such negative thoughts. I'm sorry for everything I did, if you're reading or not. I still love you. <3 No matter what, you're in my heart.
Okay.. Um good things are, I get glasses. But I have to wait 2 weeks prior that they are adjusted to fit me. >_<; But they are expencive! 312 dollars. It looks cool, but I added more options to make it better. >_<; ( Original price is 199 dollars ). Persona 3 Fes is coming out in April, so I'm happy that one of my favorite japanese games are coming out eventually. Oh! My honor roll assembly is coming soon. I can't wait, till I get my award and post it on the wall!
What's weird is.. I also took my eye exam today, and it seems like my right eye is slightly worse than my left eye. That means, my left eye can see better. But, it's strange, because I'm always good with both of my eyes. It's very weird.
Um.. This is probably my longest post ever, but please comment!
I hope anyone comments me. ^_^;
I respond back!
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