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I feel very angry and pissed. That sometimes i just wish that everyone would die and go away.
Im angry at my mother:- for holding on to me.
-Trying to establish a relationship too late in the game. (I already got used to being alone and ignored most of my young life.)
-I just wish she would just leave me alone and let me do things my way.
-I don't want her to try to talk to me about things cause you know what its not working and we are too different. So please just keep doing what you did in the beginning of my life cause i got used to and it was working
Im angry at my sister:
-For being weak and so ******** needy.
-if you want to be with your boyfriend so ******** much just go and marry him.
-or just dump the a*****e and move on with your life. Im tired of your ******** tears and worrying about every little thing
-or since you love the church so much just go and become a nun cause your preachings are getting on my nerves.
-sometimes i just wish you dead and gone so that i would have to go through your bullshit.
-or sometimes i think that my hatred for you outweighs the love i feel for you.

I slightly pissed at cookie.
For not having called me or texted me or at least said look im sorry but there s**t going on in my life i won't speak to you for awhile. I think that im an understanding person.

Im angry at the fact that today i go out and nothing seems to call to me no clothes nothing. Even the clothes that i own i feel like burning them. Because i just don't ******** want them they are old and i want something different or new or i don't know what the ******** it is but i just want something different. Even reading mangas or playing video games have lost interest for me i just don't seem to care anymore. I don't know. Im just pissed today.


Reflection.
Having looked at this over. I was just very angry and things just didn't seem to be working for me that day.