What to do during summer vacation? crying Most people are bored and have absolutely nothing to do. Lately I've been thinking about a certain person lately... ah... but why? sweatdrop
But besides that I have no idea where my mind will wander. It wanders a lot. I get curious that what life would be like for me if I was born in another planet. There's got to be people like humans out there (even if they are a tad bit deformed). I wonder if I would be considered ugly over at where an alien planet is. Probably more like a rare species or a freak. I don't like that thought. Ew.
Way away away from here I'll be. Way away away so you can't see. Oh how it feels to be alone and not believe... Oh how it feels to be alone and not believe... Oh how it feels to be alone and not believe....
ANYTHING~
I wanted to put that down. I luvz that song~~
I suppose I havent been thinking clearly for the past few days. I try to focus but it just drifts away. I hope it goes away before I go to school again. I can't have myself being unfocused during class. crying
And music is kind of all I listen too. I dont want to do anything else. Im not in the mood to clean my room. Besides four people share it and its all messy~~ sweatdrop and i dont like to clean. I hate household chores but I have to do them. I guess its because i have a big family. I don't really like having a big family. So much work. I can't tell what my parents were thinking when they wanted a big family.
Lately sleep hasnt come to me much. I've had restless nights and no matter how hard I try to sleep at night I cant. Mornings for me are the best time to sleep. Could I be nocturnal? sweatdrop I like mornings though. They're calm and peaceful. I like the sound of the birds. It reminds me of something but I cant remember wat it was. It reminds me a lot about my childhood though. There was something... about the morning that I used to love but I can't remember. I really cant? How can I forget something that i love?
The wind is a nice feeling. I really like it. When I was a kid, I'd always stand out in the wind and let it sweep all over me no matter how cold it is. I want to be like the wind and fly.
Im terrified of the dark and sometimes im not? is it my split personality? one moment id feel really scared and could only curl up into a ball and shiver. Then... theres another where i feel comfort in the darkness. i feel as if theres nothing... that will hurt me and that im in safety. ugh... I confuse myself.
my friends say i attract weird people. they admit that they themselves are pretty weird and my other friends are eek eek eek crazy weird. do i really attract weird people? maybe everyone's just weird? who knows?
 SweetHotChocoIate · Wed Jun 25, 2008 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |
