well things just have been going from bad to worse ... my cousin just can't talk to the other side of his family cuz his parents are on a divorse and part of my family need mony.. friends ignore me.. and this damn fight comes along and say that i have no long life and will end up being emo for all internity. all i have been doing in my room for the past 2 months or so is going on this website listening to screamo and sad songs and that ain't suppose to be me. and all i have been drawing is blood, tears, roses, and just wrighting non-sense in my drawing book. i sleep at day and awake at night and i feel like i turned into some sad person with no life. sad it's hard to stop it be cuz of the things that i put through EVERY SINGLE FRICKIN DAY! .. with no one beside u to have that much support and love to your life. to have u in their lovable heart forever .. *sigh* if there was a chance to change your life i would take that chance and make it better with that kind of magic but now in the present and maybe not in the future u can never change the past.. cuz it's there and leading u to hell or heaven... well have u ever heard that saying "maybe the only reason that we run away is that who will follow".... or.... "when u ask me whats wrong i just say nothin but i wish that someone would say "tell the truth" to my face".... or.... "when u ask me whats wrong i say nothin but when i turn back i say everything".. and many many more. well all those mean one thing thing .. is just help from one person that they need in their life and i need that person to keep me on track sad .
well it's morning and i haven't slept .. so byez everyone
TickleMeXoey · Thu Aug 14, 2008 @ 02:49pm · 1 Comments |