Marcus is starting to get realy insistant on trying to be my "boyfriend" and i just am not comfortable with this at all, i remember what happened the last time i let a man claim me and it isnt something i want to ever go through again plus its not like hes realy that intrested in me he just hates being alone and going out and having fun shouldnt have to be anything more. grrrr im getting to the point where i lied to him on sunday and said i had plans for sunday night when in actuality i spent the night getting hung up on by a friend over and over then watching tv and falling asleep..... its sad but i shouldnet have to feel like i need to avoid one of my best friends because he wants more than im willing to give so i need to come up with a less "me" way of telling him and until then i guess i have to pretend to be busy when im not. man this sucks.
im gonna add more to this later because i dont have the time now this is a reminder to myself that i want to journal about the whole marmar situation and why i need to make a few things clear to him before he takes this whole dating thing too seriously.hopefully without pissing him off.
HE GETS IT!!!! IM JUMPING FOR JOY BECAUSE HE FINALY GETS IT AND HES NOT MAD AT ME!!! YAY!
RACHEL THE BOB · Tue Aug 19, 2008 @ 03:34am · 0 Comments |