Haha, neutral neutral and.. more neutral. Did I say grey? 'cause that's what life is. Oh well, I drew some good pics I'll prolly put on Dev... I still need to get my driver's permit, and I had two tests today and went through Hell as usual in every part of my day. For some reason like... EVERY time that I have a test in Algebra, I have one in physics as well!! eek Heheh, It's sort of ridiculous... I was so stiff by the end of the two periods that my backpack that usually kills me already as it is about my weight, killed me even more. So much so that it was hitting a nerve or something and I couldn't feel my thumb. Nothing BUT my thumb, which was BIZARRE!! >.o!!! Iunno how that happened!! I still feel weak, and I wasn't hungry all day. What is wrong with me?
And everything in my past seems to be a dream now. I hardly even remember most of it now, just bits an pieces when I try. I realize how I emote has changed greatly and I can't give people advice anymore, maybe because I feel like I don't have any control over my life like I used to..? I don't know.. the only time I ever really feel fully focused and can be myself seems to be around David, and I can't express in words how grateful I am that I found him. I just wish he were HERE with me, NOW, and not thousands and thousands of miles away... like half a world, and it drives me insane every time I think about it. it's okay though, 'cause I know I can survive it.. but it's still sad to think about. We'll see...
 Hoshi Okami · Tue Sep 20, 2005 @ 01:50am · 0 Comments |
