I've finally realized what a complete b***h I am.
I never knew I was that terrible...really.... I knew I was mean but....I didn't know THIS cruel. Aheheheh.....I really never knew....or maybe I did....hahahah...just goes to show what kind of terrible person I am.
I never knew that it always seemed like I was trying to toy with people......I know I have purposly done so on some occasions....it was wrong of me to do that.....they didn't deserve it. But..I didn't know it was this bad.....
I...I guess I never realized that.....
To be quite honest....I've always tried to be good and do good things because I wanted to be a good person.....but....even then, everything I tried to do good, ended up going bad....and then everyone would hate me for it or yell at me for it. I....I really didn't mean too....I....
If...all I can do is bad things....then why should I bother resisting anymore?...
What if....I just...did everything everyone asked? Yeah...then maybe I wouldn't screw up as bad anymore....yeah, yeah it could work.....then I could continue to live on this meager existents that I have with less problems.....
x-l J i n x l-x · Wed Oct 15, 2008 @ 05:30am · 1 Comments |