I've began to relize it doesnt matter to eat in morderation or what not.
Even snacking in little little amounts, I decided to no longer tolerate it.
I'm going hardcore.
No snacking, No binging, No EATing.
I will avoid food for my life,
I am NOT skinny.
I may have lost weight but that means NOTHING.
I still am not SKINNY.
And do not tell me that...
When i can not have parts on my body that JIGGLE because theres fat on it, thats when i whill be called SKINNY. And NO, that is NOT NORMAL.
It just means the majority is Jiggley fat people. And i will not be part of that,
I rufuse, I'm going to silent myself and my horrible criticism i give my self every minute of every day of every month about how ugly and fat i am.
i will beat myself the only way I can. I will do what my enemy wants. I will starve myself to my grave if i must.
My enemy, Myself.
- - I am going to finish this thing on an extereme tone.
I have 6 days left, so no eating at all.
No anything.
Except water and liquid with little to no calories. No duh.
And these past days, in basic I have snacked or eaten.
I am an anorexic in the term that I am "terrified of weight gain and starve myself in order to quiet the fear."
And i will now go Hardcore Anorexia, to loose weight from going dangerously long periods with life-taking levels of low nuitrion and calories. No food.
Go Hunger, And ******** Judgers..
- Try to understand before you ever discriminate.
 forcing myself 2b social · Tue Nov 18, 2008 @ 06:53am · 2 Comments |
