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" -Just kindof talking to myself on paper. "
DIGITALized... ;3
My life?
I don't know what I'm going to be. Its kindof a huge topic, i mean, Ofcorse it is. And it will be. Your career defines the way you'll live your adualthood.
But.... Theres just too many things to be! I lust the feeling of being Important, so my fathers told to be part of the Government.
:l
But I hate lawyers, I couldnt sit hours on end Writing and serving snotty, bitchass Bosses and Higher positioned Workers.
So thats kindof out of the question. I love to write, but i don't have determination So that kills the lifestyle of a writer.
I can draw, and I'm pretty great. With half talent an all. And mabey, with more talent placed upon my shoulders from learning under a Master artsman in an Art school I could be utterly Flawless at something for once.
Another Problem to that Though. Theres plenty of modern day picassos out there, mabey people who are even better then him, But simply. Artists have no real use. A time ago people didnt need to have their passion to have use to the economy or such and Then; Artists thrived. But now, us artistic people are in No-Man's land.
:C
Good-bye dream.
e -e
I like the ocean, and it fascinates me more then writing, drawing, and learning combined. But thats probley what draws me to the ocean and it's creatures.. The secret and unknown thrill it holds. We've, as a human race and scientists, have only been and explored 1% of the ocean's floors. Theres so many unknown species and organisms that thrive down in the deep crevices and blackened waters of the oceans, and Some probley have been there sense the prehistoric times! And even more could send our minds to go on the fritz by the way they look or how they live. In a way, Defy our imaginations. Out live our craziest pictures of what a animal or fish could look like.
- Just talking about the ocean gets me all excited and amazed. I'd LOVE to be an oceanographer. To dive down in tiny cramped technolicgenic submarines and push the limit and go deep, deep, deep, far into the black abyss type waters. To go so far down, i'd get lost in the silent and scarily wonderful and great dark majestic creation. So far i'd loose the thought of what a Sky was, the stress of land, I dream to go so deep into the depths that the claustrophobic feeling was comforting. It fascinates my Logic to picture a human being so deep in the ocean's mysterious blackness to the point that the length from the surface of the ocean the where that human is could equal up to New York City straight to the tip of Texas at the Gulf Coast. To be so Alone, so far away from ANY other thoughts or intelligence of a thing. To look thru my 15 inch glass front shield and see Black, and remember I'm accually in that unknown abyss. I'm so close to the true mystery and opportunity to Learn something so great, To mabey be the first person Ever to witness and Discover a certain type of unknown secret. That. Thats what i want to be Famous for. I want to be known forever, across every tongue, every nation, every state or division. Across the human race, I want to be that person who changed how we thought. How we pictured what really occurs and happens behind the mystery. I know theres something so drastic, and even frightening to the core of a soul down there. Something disturbing, because of the fact it defies our minds functions. I believe there truely is. Giant squid? The dead ones that have washed up onto beaches around the world would probly look like New born babies compared to the True, Real, Giant. Squid. And theres likely to be sharks that mystify the thought of recognition. I have utter faith about it all. And I want to be that Person... I want to open the way peoples' Minds think. The way they reconize things. I want to show people how small they are, and How big and wonderful the place they live is. And. I want them to always remember that because of my famous Unbelieveable Discovery.
.........
*deep breath*
*smile* ...Gosh.
But anyway. Its so hard, and next to impossible to accually do that. U have to have enough money to feed your Own studies and investigations. And enough money to accualy fund ur research in and by the sea/ ocean.
There isnt an real company that truelly is about discovering. Most and all are scienctificly boring. They just do mathematic science. And boring paper research. None barely go out and research on hand. Face to face. Like I desire to do.
So n'Eh.... i have doubts about that fantasy. *cry*
D:
I want to eat something very fattening right now :C
Surger heart
^ 3^
Uhm. Subject change. ---
o -o
Onto meh SOCIAL life. *dramatic music*
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- distration -
FINISH IN A BIT.*
( This might be finished in a week or something. I'm very repeatative on NOT finishing things, so yeah o -<" )
 forcing myself 2b social · Tue Dec 23, 2008 @ 06:32am · 28 Comments |
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