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I'm really lonely. I hate this feeling and I want it gone. NOW. It's almost like there's just one giant hole in my heart waiting to be filled again, but there is noone to fill it. I ask you this: Do you think I would make a nice boyfriend? Cause everyone I've asked so far has said yes. I hae no idea why I put that in here, but I guess it was just boredom. I really want this alone feeling gone, and I have started to move on, hopefully I will still see my ex again, and we will still be great friends, I still love her yes, but right now isn't exactly the best time for her. So for now, I'll let her do what she wants and not bother her about it anymore, and let her move on as well. If she finds someone that she's happy with, I won't say a word, but if he hurts her in any way, he WILL DIE. And I'm not joking. I really want to see her happy, no matter what, and if that means I'm not the one for her, so be it. But for now, I'm not going to pout and whine anymore about it, even if I may be depressed still. At least it isn't the suicidal depression I was in until my friends dragged me out of it. And to them I owe the greatest thanks of my life. I have really great friends, and without them around, I have no idea what I might have done. I am still heartbroken, but I feel that if I don't move on now, it will be much harder on me later on, and I have already had as much pain as I can take, almost to the point where I almost closed my heart off to everyone, including my closest friends. I have almost lost control of myself on multiple occasions, towards people that normally I wouldn't have said a word to, so again I ask, to everyone who reads this, is there anyway to get rid of this alone feeling?