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	I'll choose the later
	I'll choose the later


Dunno why...I feel sad lately... just tired... I miss him... I don't know why, I talk to him pretty much every day but I can't help but feel something I've been trying to avoid this entire time, something I don't want to come to realization to. I don't want to think about it, but I know it's true, and I'll have to face it sooner or later. I think I'll choose the later. Since I've been holding the fantasy so close to me, I've felt so much happiness. Even my grades have improved to all A's because of this utter pleasure and happiness I have with him. I feel so at peace, so relaxed all the time now, knowing that no matter how terrible my day is, when I come home he'll be there to make it better. I'll deal with the problem later, I am enjoying this happiness and time of being at peace. My heart has felt so zipped up, locked by a lock, but recently it's been opened, and now it lays there half opened up from the bottom, seeping with affection for him. It makes me happy. The things I've told myself make me happy too, even if they may not be true. It brightens up my day. Last night I couldn't stop crying, but I found myself soon clutching my Elly, and staring out to the wall, whispering to myself he'll make it better, he always makes it better, and getting lulled to sleep with this hypnotizing phrase. So I'll choose the later, I'm happy right now with him, nothing else matters. : ) x-l J i n x l-x · Fri Mar 13, 2009 @ 03:09am · 0 Comments


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