Like a wheel, time and history turns. As time passes, things change, but once the wheel has made it's rotation, we end up right back where we started.
In my last post, I was talking about how my sister/friend and I were going to get together and whatnot. Well, it looks as though it may never happen. We made the partial plan to hang out on Monday and it turns out that she had a rough run-in with her boyfriend over the weekend. Turns out he's got some anxiety problems and is apparently insecure about a lot of things. So he seems to have a really big problem with his girlfriend hanging out with me. I got the whole 'maybe we should do anything together. I don't want to upset him,' speech.
Boy does that sound familiar.
But whatever. I understand. I'm not mad at him for it. I'm just some strange guy who appeared out of nowhere after 7 months of a serious relationship who talks to his lady all the time. He doesn't quite understand the bond her and I share. He doesn't understand the 3 years of friendship we've maintained. Even apart for 2 years, we're still as close as ever. As far as I'm concerned, she really is my sister and I love her. I love her like any big brother would love his sister.
But the point I'm getting at, is history is inevitably repeating itself. I had this exact same issue with my ex 2 years ago. Everything is the exact same. The event's and circumstances of the insecurity. The anxiety and the accusations. The timing and everything is to a tee. I fear that in 5 months time, it'll end just like it did before.
I fear that I will lose her again.
But if history is destined to repeat itself then I will someday be reunited with her, right? If we are destined to leave we should inevitably be destined to return to each other once again, as the wheel of time continues to turn. Only time will tell how this story unfolds.
"I will always love you this way. I will remember these days." [the Trews, Montebello Park]
~Joe
Stone Temple Creep Community Member 
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