I wonder how melancholy a person has to be to commit the act of suicide. I wonder what in there life had caused them to do such things. And I'll admit sometimes I may not be the most nicest person but I can muster sympathy. I feel for people I understand things, I'm very accepting. I can empathize with those who feel like maybe thats there only option sometimes. I know what its like to consider it to hope for it. I know what its like to want it to end quickly then at other times where I want to take my time with it and drag it out make it excruciating. But then I consider my pro's and then con's of this what some may think simple choice and then reconsider, have a revelation, and realize that I may being doing more damage than good by doing so.
Kurt Cobain lead singer of Nirvana took his own life. He made excellent music and his songs held so many hidden meanings, the words meant more than what was actually being said, and yet the message was so blatant at times. He was creative and I respect him dearly for he wrote his own music and he had a orginal voice. He had the face of a crap happy person. He face remained tranquil yet his eye's you could look in them and when I did I saw sadness. Someone who was hurting. Kurt was into cocaine if that was a mystery for those who have no idea who I'm talking about. There were times you could tell, there was just not something right about him. In his music, his manerism, whatever mood he may of be in, or if he had been using. But who said being right is right. Human is what we are so maybe being wrong is the right way or the right way for someone else.
I wonder though where did it all begin? Did he start self loathing at a young age, when he was a youngion? (Dane Cook) Was it the cocaine that made him the way he was? Did it make him slowly wither away and die inside? Or was he already dead by the time he did cocaine? And was it the cocaine that was just what kept him alive...?
And why did he use cocaine? Was it the pressure? Was it because Kurt was in a band and you felt a immense urge upon himself? Was it like his escape? Did the cocaine really help to satiate the pain or numb it?When did Kurt start? Was the cocaine his influence?
Why did he feel like suicide was his only escape? Why did he think there was no other way? Did he realize how many he would effect and how many would truly and dearly would miss him? Had he known that so many would follow in his footsteps and kill themselves as well? Was he aware that someone had to clean his body up afterward? Or was he so far gone that he had no recollection of anything else but the task that needed to be commensed?
~Well Kurt Cobain I truly loved you and still do. And its upsets me that I will never be able to meet you and thankyou personally that your music was special to me. It filled the void in my head. You are orginal and pure in my heart. You wrote your own music and did a lot that many bands could not, you accomplished. I don't know you as well as I may like but this is my tribute to you and I hope that you rot in peace (Marshall Mathers) and once again I shall be repetetive and thankyou one last time!!!
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 zombielove1369 · Sat Apr 04, 2009 @ 07:36am · 0 Comments |
