So, I'm sick of these ******** dreams I've been having lately... You know the dreams where you wake up and you're like "wtf am I on?" I've been having a lot of those as of late... Had one yesterday where I lived in picture perfect suburbia in the 50s, married to Neara. Everything was so normal.. like typical 50's garbage.. crazy.. I never dream like that.. I'm not straight.. It's not the 50's.. I will never work a 9 to 5 job.. I will NEVER live in suburbia.. Had a nightmare last night too... Had to do with Rais and my father.. yeah I kinda shrugged it off at first, but like now that I've let it sit for a while.. It's really starting to bug me... Totally died at the end of that one.. and I know that's not a good sign if you follow dream interpretation. So, yeah, I'm just about fed up with my mind. You know what else I'm ******** fed up with... people ******** copying me... Seriously.. there's this one person ((I'm not mentioning names cuz drama ******** drives me crazy)) and every time something happens to me health wise.. the same ******** thing just so happens to happen to this person... Same with music... every ******** band I like this person absolutely loves.. with all the bands and different kind of music I listen to there's no ******** way it's possible for someone to ******** love every single song I do.... Then this same person starts using my ******** Kitty faces all the damn time... come on... I'm the only one I know that uses those.. I'm sure there are more people out there that do but come the ******** on... wtf... nobody else I know uses those.... ******** person even uses the same random a** words I use all the time.... Seriously.. If you're trying to impress me it's not working... You know what impresses me.. ORIGINALITY and PERSONALITY and this person has neither.. You know another thing that pisses me the ******** off... when people talk bad about themselves constantly... like that's all they ever do.. never say one good thing about themselves... it's ******** stupid on so many levels.. you are you no matter what you look like/ act like/ dress like.. and if you don't like it ******** CHANGE IT! complaining about it isn't gonna do you any ******** good... Ugh I'm in such a bad ******** mood right now if you can't tell... and if you're still reading this I'm really sorry and a little creeped out by how interest you are in my ranting.. anyway... you know what I really hate... being single... like omg kill me now... I'm such a needy person romantically.. yes I will willingly admit that... I'm like one of the most clingy, needy, over affectionate people I know.. I mean it's not totally a bad thing, but it drives me crazy when I'm single... Yeah it's not like I have to sleep alone, but sleeping with a pregnant woman is totally different than sleeping with a lover... See this is what happens when I go days with out sex... ugh... I'm so bitchy... *pulls out all my hair*... anyway I'll end this here cuz if you're still reading this I'm officially considering you way too creepy for your own good... seriously why would you listen to me b***h for this long... i could go on and on with this rant but I won't waste anymore of your creepy a**' time
 melancholy_vomit · Thu Apr 09, 2009 @ 04:19pm · 0 Comments |
