The past couple of days I have been spending somewhat wisely upon my school work, but now, that's kind of rare for me. I don't know why, I guess I got too lazy to do my school work, so it will effect me sometime soon. All I know is that I get all my schoolwork done, so I guess that will make me okay for now.
I am pretty sick of school and reality all together, and I just seem to dwell on that. It's sort of depressing when I think about it and then I just shut down. Not to sound emo, or anything, that's just how it is and I just get angry. It's like something in my brain is telling me that I am not in a good place... I just hope this feeling can go away cause it is really affecting my friendships and I feel like a bad person to them all the time.
Being sort of the antisocial I am, I just don't make the effort to go and do things like I used to. I'm worn out from all this crap that is being impacted into my brain, and I might as well hide my whole body while I do it.
I don't like too many people at my school, and I go to bed late so I can be tired the next day so I can have a good excuse not to talk to them. I am so smart, right? This really does help my antisocial-ness.
I know, this whole thing is pessimistic and all, but I really speak the truth, cause I don't lie about much cause I know it will get me know where at some point in time....
I just hope it will go away, all this blehh that I feel.
Clintorus Eastwood Community Member 
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