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I hate reality, I wish my life was like a fantasy.... For a long time ive wanted this but God refuses to give me it. Yet God gives me the best thing ever, Cuddly bear. Still I really wish my life was a fairy tale, Everytime I read a book with two demons in love or when I watch a maple love series on utube I always pray to God for my lfie to be like that. I used to be addicted with maple love series cause the people, how they put them, its like there teasing me. I want a fairy tale life so badly, I'd start writing stories about my life, I'd start saying I'm really a demon, with red eyes and wings but I know Im human. I DONT WANT TO BE HUMAN! human life is BORING! Same thing over and over again, love, unlove, breakup, new love, real love, fake love, we live then die WHATS THE POINT! Is the dead life more fun, is it what I want it to be? I really wish there was no human world, only demon world, animal world, a world with only creatures. Now iv'e stopped thinknig of these things, well less I mean but i still pray to God at times that I wasnt human.

I remember my "demon" friends that I made and "planned" on meeting when I became a demon "again"

1) Axel- Red long hair, red eyes, red and black wings, and was supposingly my "demon" "love"
2) Josh- Purple spikey like hair, Purple eyes, and was a perv.
3) Mike- Blonde hair, blue eyes, green wings, was supposingly my best friend
4) Nick- Black shaggy hair, very gray eyes, and was quiet person.
5) Cynder- "friend" that I saved from dying in the demon world. Purple hair, purple eyes, and very very in love with Josh.
6) Mark- black hair, black eyes, top demon.

There was plenty more going threw my mind at this time but theres jsut to many, i have decided to put my stories of my "demon life" up, in ltr journal entries, so you can see what kinda things were going threw my mind.....

I hope one day these "demons" come to life..and take me with them...but..no...itll be different cause my actual love is cuddlybear, but thats the only change I would want for my stories......I want this "demon life" so badly......God grant me that wish, please....