DEPRESSION
I have never been down this hill before, never have i hurt this much, never have i had so much fear. this feeling is to strong, it came from no where, why am i so sad, why do i see tears. i knew what i was getting into, i just never knew how much it would hurt, i never knew i could wonder " why on earth". every Hour, to ever min, going to second, then ending, i still wait by the phone, just to hear an "OK"; to hear " I'm alright", or " how was your day". my heart is to heavy, i cant even stand, just thinking that one day it will all end, is to much pain, i dont want to wonder, and i dont want to guess; I dont want to keep this weigh on my chest. come back to me, dont let my soul fade, dont let my heart and mind, fall and brake. i seen it to many times, i read to many story lines, i know how it works, and i saw the light, but why is this feeling making me disbelieve all the things in life. im not crazy i would never end my life my self, but i'd damn if i let the devil drag me to hell. i'll sit and wait alittle longer, i will keep watching the phone, keep my time. but i beg you please dont make me wait to long, cause i dont like this feeling, the feeling of depression is to strong....
I have never been down this hill before, never have i hurt this much, never have i had so much fear. this feeling is to strong, it came from no where, why am i so sad, why do i see tears. i knew what i was getting into, i just never knew how much it would hurt, i never knew i could wonder " why on earth". every Hour, to ever min, going to second, then ending, i still wait by the phone, just to hear an "OK"; to hear " I'm alright", or " how was your day". my heart is to heavy, i cant even stand, just thinking that one day it will all end, is to much pain, i dont want to wonder, and i dont want to guess; I dont want to keep this weigh on my chest. come back to me, dont let my soul fade, dont let my heart and mind, fall and brake. i seen it to many times, i read to many story lines, i know how it works, and i saw the light, but why is this feeling making me disbelieve all the things in life. im not crazy i would never end my life my self, but i'd damn if i let the devil drag me to hell. i'll sit and wait alittle longer, i will keep watching the phone, keep my time. but i beg you please dont make me wait to long, cause i dont like this feeling, the feeling of depression is to strong....
