So, I guess the main reason I'm writing this is simply because I haven't posted anything in a while. ... Yes, that is your cue to go ahead and stop reading. I won't mind. I never mind...
So, anyways, I could just simply write my heart out on gaia and hope that someone responds, but I don't even know how many people actually read my journals... or even care what's being said in them...
*sigh* So my mind is kinda going two ways... If you ever knew me enough, you would know first hand that this is one of my top 5 major struggles, My worst enemy is myself. And I know I shouldn't be complaining about this WHAT-SO-EVER, but I do, and I hate myself for it... One side of me is being all "emo-ish"
>>And I'm fighting hard against it... One side wants your pity
>>The other says "I don't want your attention on this subject." One side says ******** this
>>The other says "soldier on" One side says to give up
>>The other says "stay strong" One side says "I'm broken"
>>The other says "they need my help more than I do" One side says "Take care of yourself first"
>> The other side quotes a lyric ~More of you and less of me~
... sweatdrop Anyways, now that your're very confuzed, (those of you who are still reading, if there are any...) NEW SUBJECT~
As you might've guess, Im bored, and a little high off pain pills (for a surgery, jeez =P ) And I've been reading my bestest friend's journals Backwords... And I can see how much she's changed, In a good way of course ^_^ And I just wanted to give a shout out to her Don't lose hope I luvs you, "sister" XD Just as a side note, I am also her "stalker", cause I am simply that amazing. ;D
Third, and final note... God, I feel amazing. XD I keep asking myself, Holy. s**t. Did that seriously just happen? and NO, you pervs I'm not talking about getting laid. stare ... Screw this, Im not gonna even try to explain how great I feel. XD
Kelai_Caberin · Sun Oct 11, 2009 @ 03:09am · 1 Comments |