as Of late I've been thinking about things like My Age, My Faith, My Goals and Dreams...
and as of about a week ago i came to a Realization, time really does Heal all Wounds.
Loosing My Father Killed all plans i had for my future, Ended Everything i had worked towards when i started working for him...
hell if everything was still going as per planned I'd Have moved to Red Deer as a Frist year Journeyman Sheet metal Mechanic Bought a Home and started on My Gas fitting and my Refrigeration apprenticeships, But The fates Cant always let Plans Unfold...
In that Time since i moved to this city, I've made friends and have a fairly decent size following of good People, Hell if i got famous for anything These people would have to of Given me a shove towards it...
I mean I'm Mentally Trapped in these boxed Cycles of paradoxical logic, Though I've Worked Out alot of the Self Defeating elements that have kept me from Unlocking parts of my Spiritual memory, Now i have it back and i just have to figure out what i want to do with it... I keep Thinking i should share some of my understanding, But with who. there's a Handful who can handle some of what i know, theirs One Who i know can handle it but has to get past some of the Real World Issues first... But honestly i wonder who would even want to know some of the more detailed workings of the things that Regular understanding would look at and wonder what the ******** was wrong with me
But No matter for the time i have things figured out in my mind and i just have to start enacting my rules of action to make sure i keep things above board
But for now this is all... and if your wondering about what exactly i'm going on about just ask
Oh and as an after thought for those of you who might be New to this whole work of insanity that is my Journal here on Gaia... This is a Rant sweatdrop
 hellflame3000 · Mon Nov 09, 2009 @ 01:24am · 0 Comments |
