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“Please”
I beg
“Love me the way I love you”
You shake your head
Saying you’ll never love me
Yelling at me to get the hell out of your life
I grab the knife
You start to shake
You start to cry
Begging me not to hurt you
Screaming that you love me
But it’s too late
I know you don’t care about me
I know you don’t wish I were yours
Wanting you as bad as I do
But knowing I’ll never get you
Hurts so much
And if I can’t have you
Then no one can have you
That’s why I stabbed you
But looking at you now
Lying on the floor
In a puddle of your own blood
You look so calm
So beautiful and gentle
This is the way I like you
Not arguing with me
Not yelling at me
Not crying because of me
I like it even more
When I take off your bloody clothes
And wrap the wound up in bandages
You don’t push me away
When I touch your breasts
Kiss your lips
Take off my clothes and insert myself into you
When I’m done
I can feel you thanking me quietly
I put fresh clothes on you
Carry you to the river
And dump your lifeless body
In the water