so much has happened lately that it makes me feel as if I'm living in my own anime series.
I guess I need to explain most of it from the begining.
first of ,last week was my oldest brother's b-day...he,at the time,was the only one that knew that I like girls the way I do.
well,this all started thrusday,the day before his b-day,I went to class with my sister and one of my girl...friends...as in a friends that happens to be a girl .....she confesses to me that it was such a shame that I liked someone else cause she actually wanted to date me....yeah...welll anyways a friend of mine picked me up (she couldn't stay crying )so me and my friend went out and had dinner.....O_o I guess that's the proper name for it seeing as it was already 5 in the afternoon;by the time I got home,it was already 7,I didn't stay for long though because me and my mom rushed out the house so we could go and buy the gifts....yes,we waited till the last minute again rolleyes sweatdrop
well,I ended up buying him a book that I actually wanted to buy for myself.....atleast I got to read it,I went to sleep and that was the end of thrusday....friday comes and I didn't know that my brother was going to be home,since he moved out and is now living like 3 hours away from us....so my friend calls and invites me to go to her place and watch movies with her.....I get home around 11:30 and I noticed that my brother was home ,so I give him his gift and he holds my wrist (he was in bed at the time) and tells me to hold for a sec that he needed to say something,so I stay and he tells me that he tolled them.....my thoughts at the moment were "what the hell....oh god no,please don't let it be what I think it is".....it just so happens that it was what I thought and that he had tolled mom and dad that I'm a lesbian.......he said that he thought that I was going to exploid if he didn't say anything....which I was about to in reality....anywho,I started crying cause I thought that it was going to be like last time...*bad memories come to mind*....but it wasn't,they were ok with it this time.....I was shocked to say the least.....you would be too if you had my past......well,yesterday...me,a friend and the girl that likes me were going back to the college cause we had pizza...along the car ride I started this game that I ended up kissing her......she moved cause I was only going to kiss her in the check but instead it ended up being in the lips by accident......well....she has proven to be a helpful allied cause of some things that she has done for me lately...she's trying to help me....and protect me heart
p.s.
I've had a really high fever lately ,I found out that one of my friends is ana/ed-nos,and I'm taking new pills starting next week.
 yamiruri · Wed Feb 01, 2006 @ 10:45pm · 1 Comments |
