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Karma, is a b***h. No. Life, is a b***h.
If Life were a person, I would shoot them. End life. Well, that isn't very good actually.

I don't like you very much. I don't think I ever really liked you. Maybe I have at some point in time, but then came the moment I realized you just make me feel better about myself.
And then thats when it all bit me in the a**.

Reality is a b***h. I found I am envious of you. I'll admit that. I envy your godforsaken life, you disgusting creature.

Yeah, there. I admit it. To myself, though. Which is good. I can stop lying to myself.

However, she is correct when it comes to you. You are gross, you just are. I'm happy to have friends that go untouched by you. I'm even happier to know that those friends don't even know of your existence.



Damn it.
My face feels greasy. But it usually feels like that on humid days. Yeah, humid days. Stupid, I know. But I guess it just happens. Maybe it's actually perspiration or whatever the hell it's called.

******** you.

I need to get over my insecurities. But it's not quiet insecurities when you know it's true.















I wouldn't mind working at a Host(or hostess) club. Yeah, keeping things anonymous here. However I do not have the looks for it. So I keep that dream as a last resort aside from killing people for money. (Hey, I have to make a living somehow) If I ever snap, I hope it's a long time from now. I want you to suffer. If I snapped now, it wouldn't be too bad. I know it's a lot more hate and discomfort on my part, but I need the last 5% of my life occupied by something. Friends, School, and music take up like, 95% of my life. I know 5% is a lot for you, but hey, like I said, if I ever snap I want you to suffer.















I sometimes wonder about cutting off my ties with everyone after high school. Well, I wouldn't have to cut off anything at all. There is nothing there in the first place. Outside of school I mostly chat around with my older friends. Which makes me feel kinda...idk weird, because I do like my school friends.



I will live my life the way I want to. I don't care what you say, I don't care if you think I'm going to die, I will live longer then you. I know it. I'm healthy, I am level headed, I have self control. The only reason anyone would disagree is because when I am with them, I am in an isolated area and it really doesn't matter what I do because it's not like anyone else will know.

...that sounded weird.
In science, I sit next to two girls who I couldn't care for at all. They talk too much though. I hate it. I really hate it. I shall prove to them I am smarter. Well, I've actually been doing well in science now. So hopefully I don't freeze up. I miss my old lab partner. She was so cool. She let me play around with the random things we'd dissect, and we'd make dirty jokes, and we'd rant about our teacher. Even Nakasone was like that. Nakasone is cool.
So is Kimi. Kimi and Nakasone are cool. Along with the other buttfaces I hang out with. They're cool.
They're chill.







I have an event coming up next month, in...like, two/three weeks? I want to go adventuring in my little outfit. Should be funny. I should work on my appearance though. I'll be hiding my face, so no need to worry about that. I just...I have a little flab. Been working on it, it went down. And it's actually not that bad. I just look human. I'm excited. I'll be with the Undertaker. Who totally ruins Kaya for me, but whatever. I do the man some justice between us two. Haha.

Not mention the English grammar and spelling in our phone messages. Perfect Japanese, yet horrid English.
Engrish.
It's funny.
So funny.






Lonnie still makes me smile.
Drake makes me laugh and wish I played video games more XD
Kana makes me question myself as a woman-figure.
Mango makes me question myself as a male-figure.
Buki makes me question my sexuality.
Ji makes me want to go to Oktoberfest.
Oppa(means "older brother", my Korean Friend) makes me wonder if he had plastic surgery LOL
XD
I think for every older friend I have, I have a corresponding school friend.