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HAH.
no,
not at all.



I like who I am, and I accept myself as someone who just does not give two ******** shits.

There are a lot of things I want to change, but, well, I just can't. No matter what, I'll always be quiet or really shy. I don't like opening up to people, that's usually reserved for two people :/ my old weekend "mother" & "father" otherwise known as poopie face and guitar god.
Hah.
Or, smells like poop and guitar god XD


On a lighter note,
I want to change the atmosphere I surround myself in. I think it would do me some good. But it's hard to make friends this late in time :/ I can always just...adjust my image to those I know. Such as -cough-rai-cough- maybe not come off as a complete lunatic that likes to hug? Sai is pretty chill, Odie is a coolio homeboy...
my out-of-school-friends couldn't be better.
Well, unless they were Yusei and Yuuki, but that's not possible. Not at all. Well..unless of course, I went to Tokyo and got their attention, but I'm too lazy.
And well, poor too. Which is why I can't just get my own ps3 and get FF13 okay Rai? Yeah. STFU >:c you're so cute.He's eyecandy.
That I shall get over in a few days XD
I'm such a woman when it comes to people I get attracted too :/ hopeful, and then I realize I'm foolish, and then I just cut off the line.
Pfft I'd make a horrible fisherman. Well, I was actually pretty good when I was younger....I just felt bad holding the fish on the line because of the hook kinda...hurt it...and such :/
meh.
I'm too considerate of others' feelings. Keita pointed that out, that I'm considerate of others' feelings. But Kuro on the other hand, calls that "being really Asian."
Example: Sunday we were left without a ride back home, Mango suggested asking Odie but it was such a short notice, and I didn't even get to talk to him before Mango asked for me, that I felt really, really, really rude :/ Kuro was totally for it.
Example 2: (We ended up getting a ride...) Went to fast food place too, Mango offered to buy us food/drink, I declined because regardless of how close we seem after just 1 month of knowing each other (...well like 2 months) I just met her and didn't think it was right for her to pay for our things. OF COURSE Kuro was totally for it...I got a drink..offered Mango some, because, a kid must be grateful for their "nee-sama" as I call her out of respect xD
Where there any other moments?
Well, I know when it comes to group projects I usually just let Keita do whatever because...I usually think my ideas aren't worth it. But I finally voiced my opinion and Keita loved the suggestion. And when it comes to rides home, that Keita offers, I usually ask if it's okay, even though she's the one who asked.
I'm so Asian.
I guess. No
I just call that polite....
really polite.
Kuro says it's because I'm "Chinese"
wtf. My mum is like that too :/ supposedly I'm Chinese from my Father. I swear my Mother must have some too.
I mean, she's like CHUN LEE XD




anyways,
I need to be more open or something.
I've been told that a lot :/
gotta stop hiding and s**t.
Mainly just "be more open"
only heard the "stop hiding" like, 5 times.
as compared to the "be more open" which was ....oh geez more than 100 times?

I'd like to think I'm a sweet person.
I really am.

Mango thinks I'm adorable and really cool. Hell, she is too.
Lonnie thinks I'm adorable and hella awesome. He is too.
I think I'm stupid and a total downer. Hell, I am.




school is really boring the crap out of me :/
I just need a little rainbow here and there.
But I don't get one D:
it's like, "shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit"


I kind of want to change my hair color, but because my hair is naturally black and curly, having to constantly touch up my hair (it goes SOOO F-CKING FAST whenever I dye it D< ) along with straightening it...that will be very bad Dx
so I guess, all I can do...
is just get some color on my skin?
Wait what the ******** am I doing here?



:c
can't wait until the 16. WAIT NO I CAN
I STILL NEED TIME TO SEW D<
anyways,
yeah.
I will be happy when the 16 comes around.
Going to hang out with Mango again..hopefully xD
maybe see Rai ._.
and Sai and Odie xD


my legs are so soft.
I'll be wearing a skirt and the leggings, so there is a slight span of exposed thigh,
like on Sunday when I was wearing shorts + tights, Kuro's pants riped my tights when I tried to get a piggy back ride Dx and then I was feeling my thigh the rest of the night...ITS SO SOFT

Mango is going to prevent me from scaring Rai & Odie even more by stopping me from asking them if they want to touch my thigh xD
And in return, I must touch Mango's wig. Because Mango will cosplay UNDERTAKER and the wig is really soft xDD


keep me busy, and away from my own thigh.
Nothing is better then an Undertaker wig.
high quality, on sale,
really soft.


did I say really soft?
Like my wig from Wigcraze on Rakuten.
Because they didn't have a shop here.
They're based in Tokyo D:
so far.
Not really.
They have good wigs ; w ;


makes me want to go Gyaru.
As in sophisticated high class woman,
but at the same time, not quite high class.
The average woman that manages to seem high class, and is also sophisticated
with a hint of the girly attitude she hides.


I don't know.
I'm just guessing.


I want to go to sleep (_ _)
but I can't sleep.


I like hugs. And glomps.
I sleep with a stuffed animal :/
yeah,
because I like to hug XD
I'm like, -hugs little elephant-
and then I sleep while listening to some kind of Metal music.
funny.



oh I got mail from Kana and Akari biggrin
Yay