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Okay, for starters, and I truly mean this with all my heart and mind, I am NEVER EVER GOING INTO TARGET AGAIN. Or, if I do, I am only looking at stuff on shelves, my parents, and the floor. I almost had a ******** heart attack over, and I bet you I'm right, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I almost lost my lunch over NOTHING. Just a stupid reaction to a non-existant danger. It hasn't happened for months now, and suddenly I almost have a panic attack.
Bagby is evil, pure evil. I had her for a sub in Spanish and omfg she is so irritating. We had a fire drill. She practically YELLS at us when we get back to be quiet when we're not talking. I mean, there were only 16 of us, and all the noise was from the next room over. She gave some girl a detention because her hair fell over her shoulder when she bent over to write. She's fricking OCD. that's not against any school rules at all. She hasn't given me a detention, though if we have her much more, I'm sure she'll find SOME excuse. I'm an idiot in school, let's face it. And she'll nail me one day for sure.
Isn't cynicism wonderful?
And now I'm worrying b/c all these things are falling into place, and it's not a good sign. I don't want the last few things to come true, but I'm afraid they will. It's horrible. The first is the more obvious and MUCH more likely to happen soon, whereas the second, while highly unlikely, is horrible to think about. But I have to. The first one, if my GORGEOUS dream comes completely true, which it has so far, means I'm going to be betrayed and hurt so deep I won't be able to bounce back. I...I can't let it happen, but I've never had any control over any of those situations. So, if it comes true, I'm powerless. And then, the second one... I've had nightmares about it since 8th grade, but back then I never believed it could happen. But now, the way things are, the way things will be, I don't know. Everything keeps coming true, and I don't want it to. I just wish I could have some peace. No more dreams, no more just "knowing". No more of this s**t where I can tell someone's there without seeing them. NO MORE, DAMMIT!
"Always look on the bright side of life *whistle* Always look on the light side of life *whistle*"
~nepie
 nepie · Sun Apr 09, 2006 @ 11:54pm · 0 Comments |
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