So, I'm not sure what to put here...Normally I write a journal entry when I have some proper material, but I don't have much of that in my noggin right now. =
I like analyzing people sometimes. You know, sitting back and piecing much of what I know about them including recent knowledge. I start to realize that the person that they are is someone who I haven't actually noticed in a conscious way. Maybe unconscious, but normally my increasing short-sightedness keeps me from really "seeing" it. It's only when I lounge around lazily and having nothing important to do that I get to running through actions and words.
A smack there, or a giggle here is basically what I ignore. Well, not ignore, but it's become so routine that I'm not amazed by the occurrence. My schema of said person stays the same until I think on it later, and laugh at all of the secret meanings that I missed firsthand. There's the bad stuff, too, don't get me wrong. And the stuff that makes me cringe in guilt or humiliation.
If it's humiliation, I force myself to laugh at it. I admit my mistake. That said, guilt is a little harder to master. Anger is a whole 'nother level, mainly because it tends to lurk around for a bit.
--Ty
 Ty Gwynnia · Tue Apr 03, 2012 @ 07:08am · 0 Comments |
