Looking young has been an issue for me all my life and will continue to be an issue. Growing up, I was often shorter than my peers and looked significantly younger. Even though I’ve grown some since then, I’ve pretty much reached my growth limit.
I use to not mind it so much because I was young and it made sense for me to look younger then normal. However, it never crossed my mind that the older I get, my youthful appearance never changes. It’s quite embarrassing to be honest.
I would hate to be in a relationship and people mistaking my boyfriend for being my older brother or worst his daughter. It makes me ashamed of my height and last thing I want is for him to start to resent me because of it. I also have a niece and nephew, the last time I’ve seen them they were growing and on their way to adulthood. So I’m not surprise that they’ve gotten taller then me.
So being one of their aunts, I don’t want them to feel embarrassed about me when they introduce me to their friends. Having an aunt that’s older but looks young enough to be one of their classmates/friends isn’t the coolest thing. Even worst is when you’re spending time with them and get carded because I want to buy a rated “M” video game for myself.
I also have major social anxiety and often depend on others, which doesn’t exactly help me look any older. Don’t get me wrong; I am sure looking younger will work to my advantage when I am much older, but for now, it just sucks. It makes me feel extremely self-conscious about myself and I wish things would just change.
 DamnBlackHeart · Sun May 20, 2012 @ 03:18am · 0 Comments |
