There are things in this world that I don't like and things that I like even less. Recent events can be categorized in both of those, but there are also the things that have existed before these.
Relearning how to type using the home keys is definitely one of them. When I was in elementary school I was able to type with them with ease, thanks to this game series called Mavis Beacon, which I still say as Bacon. XD I don't know how it is that I drifted away from that system and progressed into the 2-3 finger typing one, but now I find that getting back into the home key one is tough. It sounds clunky and clumsy to me and I can't type nearly as fast as I can "normally". Hopefully I'll be able to master both kinds.
Human emotions are also something that, despite being an old issue of mine, still frustrate me. Not just the reactions of others but also my own. I'll start with something that happened last week. I was at my best friend's house when her sister, whom I've known for a long time, decided to drop by. At first I thought she was kidding when she told me, coldly, not to do what I had done the previous week when I was over at my friend's house. She's like that sometimes. Then I realized she was actually angry. That struck me as strange. There had never been a time before where she'd "blown up" like that about something concerning me. I automatically knew that anything I could say would be deflected so I kept quiet, that and I didn't want to yell at her in front of my best friend/her younger sister. What confuses me is that she hadn't been there the week before, so someone must have told her that my boyfriend had come over just to talk to me for a few moments. But that informant must have thought we were making out rather than talking, so that was why she was so angry.
Moving on to my own emotions, I can get angry at small things like that as well, although in that case I would have liked more information before yelling. The two emotions that have rarely bothered me before must now be brought on by stress, I think. Anger and...sorrow? I guess I could place sadness and becoming upset into that genre. In that case, this stress that has been weighing on me has not been dealt with properly. I take out my anger or sorrow on others rather than dealing with the creator if the problem. Graduating and the incoming pressures of life add to the stress, or maybe they caused the stress. With my anger and sadness comes forgetfulness and procrastination as I struggle to keep myself happy and calm. I know that if I continue on like this then life will be all the harder later on.
I think I'll end this one now. On a side-note, yesterday was the death-day of my pup Arya from last year, although I include her sister Lola as well seeing that she died either the morning before or sometime close to that. I love them both, and miss them. ^^
--Ty
 Ty Gwynnia · Mon Jun 04, 2012 @ 08:55pm · 0 Comments |
