lately i've kinda feel a bit depressed or somethin. i dono what it is but somethin inside of me says have somethin happen now and nothing i can do can make that happen and somethin in my heart tells me to be depressed or somethin i dono maybe it was cause of my dream last night or my thoughts bout last nights dream made me depressed or somethin. but for some odd reason i'm depressed and i dono what to do today. if i go off on someone please read here first or ask me and i'll tell you to read this (for those who IM me and stuff). as for everything else i think you shouldn't be readin this cause well you probably don't give jack s**t bout my life or the way i feel but i dono you can do what ever you want when readin this i don't care.
well i'm off to get depressed or somethin like that right now if i don't talk to you in a long time then i'm probably still depressed and stuff. i hope that none of you take it personally but its just how i feel bout things and no one bothers to do anything for me. heck no one even bothers to IM me anymore the only person that does that is my wife who's kept me sane so far. and i feel that she keeps me from loosing it and goin ballistic and stuff. well all i can say is that depression is a b***h always has and always will be which is why no one expects it and stuff. crying well i think i'm gettin more depressed just typing these things so i'll stop now and tell you more bout it later alright. hope yall have a better day than me and stuff.
*later on*
i'm startin to notice that ppl don't like me anymore. they don't talk to me and stuff. even my friends and family don't talk to me anymore stare i think that everyone hates me or somethin. and yes this has been a very bad day for me and i will get ticked at anyone that annoys me. there are a few ppl who are accepted but the rest i will b***h out. thats all for now. later maybe then i'll feel better O_o (yea right like thats ever gonna happen)
*10:37 PM*
well it seems i'm not as much depressed as i was before. but all in all i'm doin fine but who knows maybe it'll come back and i'll get depressed again and stuff O_o. well anyways to those who read it. i know you didn't read everything and stuff. but atleast you took the time to read it and stuff. thanks anyways. well thats all i have for now maybe tomorrow i'll feel alot better.
 Tigerjake Takinochi · Wed Dec 01, 2004 @ 11:28pm · 0 Comments |
