how could I have been so weak?
I binged....I ate,I was weak and now my stomach is full and I haven't felt this disgusting in a loooong time.
so dirty,I hate this,I want to purge but there are to many people here,why didn't I just chew and spit?...was it really that hard to go and get a bag?.....I hate myself, I wish I were dead,I would be a pretty fat corpse.
I hate myself.
I hate everything,every inch of my body,every part.
there are times were I wonder how danfgerous it must really be to just grab a knife and open my stomach and get some of the fat out,I've thought about it so much,I hate myself.
why?...why did I even eat?.....I hate myself, I hate every ounce of this disgusting body, I want to destroy it, I want to shread it to pieces.
I wish I were dead
 yamiruri · Thu May 11, 2006 @ 12:48am · 1 Comments |
