Why must i keep thinking like this. I looked at Alex today and I found myself jealous, so jealous. She's so confident and has a personality of gold whereas I don't. I want to be happy like her.. maybe then people will like me.. I suck. I'm depressed all the time and I hate myself for it. I got really upset today.. burst into tears when Ross was round because I so want to wave a magic wand and change but I don't know if it'll be the real me. I don't even know if I know the real me anymore.. I hate to sound so soppy but I kinda need Chris right now.. he can make me laugh no matter how down I'm feeling. Meh, guess I'll have to face the truth.. Not that anyone really reads this so that's kinda a good point.
In other news had meh english lit exam yesterday. It went crap. the questions were awquard and I just really hated the whole exam.. o.O; Got RE on Friday but I'm hoping I'd have cheered up immensly by then I have too anyways tis Chris's 17th b'day! xD
Ick, gotta make Dad tea. I swear I am the bloody tea lady in this household.. >o<
Might see if I can binge on chocolate...
HoverCrab · Wed May 24, 2006 @ 04:56pm · 6 Comments |