welli started working out.....i can run about a mile in 13.3 minutes....pretty good for only running a mile 3 times....in the last 2 weeks...... or atleast i think so....I'm pretty proud of myself even if no one else is....
which brings me to a rant....i told my husband.....that i started running....and that i ran a mile without stopping.....and he didn't even care....for me that is a big accomplishment and i don't get a "good job" or an "i'm proud of you" he just changes the subject... like it doesn't even matter.....which really hurts my feelings.....It's like i try and try to loose weight to look good for him and feel good about myself...but he doesn't do anything to encourage me.....and then he says stuff like he's going to make himself fat to get out of the army(he's over in iraq...and part of this is him just being so depressed there but it's still troubling)....which means he doesn't care about himself and if he doesn't care about himself the he doesn't care about me.....and besides.... know this sounds shallow.....but would you rather have sex with someone who has a hard, sculpted body or a soft doughy body....personally i like the hard sculpted myself....and he looks soooo sexy when he show's his bicepts but he's not taking care of himself and is TRYING to get fat which i find is unattractive.....and i know you say you should love someone for who they are not what they look like.....and i will still love him.....but it's just makes sex better and is more asthethically pleasing if he takes care of himself....
i don't know i guess what i'm trying to get at is if i'm go to try to better myself for him he should want to do the same for me...right??
so that is the end of the rant...and advice would be great....
current weight this morning...160lbs..getting lighter..
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