Well this is my fist post! I guess I better make it a good one. I guess I can start off with a little about me.
My name is kitty, and i'll be turning 23 on October 4th. that's in 3 days. I'm a mommy and married to a wonderful man who is currently serving his country in Iraq with the Army. We are stationed in Hawaii but I currently live in Florida until he get's back.
now a few thoughts on things happening to me lately. Well I was planning on going out to night to celebrate my birthday for the first time since I became legal to drink(I was prego when I turned 21 and still had seperation anxiety at 22) so now i'm turning 23 and wanting to go out and have a great time. Unfortunately my friend Tara was tired tonight so she didn't want to do it.... also she just droped the bomb that she is moving to Iowa in about 2 weeks... so I will be basically friendless here since my other good friend Elishia moved to orlando at the end of August.Soooo....I'm pretty much going to be alone now.
I'm kinda pissed Tara's leaving for a couple of reasons...she didn't call me to tell me ...I had to find out by calling her to see how her trip up there went(she evacuated to Iowa for Ivan)...Also, now I'm almost positive when we do go out it's not going to be MY night....I'm going to have to share it with her because she's leaving and this will be the last time everyone see's her.... which makes me jealous because whenever we go out she is ALWAYS in the spotlight... for once I want to be the important one...she always seems to be the pretty girl and I'm just the friend....everyone says "damn she's hot!" or " what a nice a**!" and crap like that....and then I think of how I'm jealous of her and I feel bad for being that way because she's my friend....it's just, I want to feel beautiful WANTED as well.... and it's not like i'm ugly or anything(atleast I don't think so) it's just she outshines me i guess... you know the type the one all the guys try to get with...
and yeah so your thinking "well duh! you're married"...yeah I know that and I would never act on anything lord knows my husband and my family are my life and I would never do anything to jeopardize that, but it would still be nice to know others think I'm sexy and attractive too. Is that too much to ask?
well I guess that's my rant for the night....until next time!!!
Kitty Community Member 
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