I think this might just be the next new livejournal.com, minus all the drama smile I'm not going to bother censoring my words in here, so just ignore me if I start to ramble, or if something offends you. These entries are simply the things that come out of my head...
Last night had so much potential, I thought I was going to be having an excellent night. But I was left out, and tired, and bored. I didn't get to have fun because I was alone.. Left by myself, the only one who didn't have someone to be in love with. Sure, that's typical, but this time was different. This time it was a special night that I alone had paid for, and I didn't even get to enjoy it. But I guess it made my friends happy, and for that reason I should just keep quiet. Because all I really want is to have some good friends that I know will always be there for me. Except I don't think these are those friends.
Mike promised me since he couldn't be there last night that he'd call me and come see me today. I should have known he wasn't going to. I guess that's just something I should be getting used to. It's for sure not going to be changing anytime soon. I don't have anything left to offer, so if he doesn't like it, than I guess that's the end. If only he would just ask me.. just let me fall in love with him. I would love to be there for him, to be so much better for him than all of the slutty girls he's been with. I don't think he sees that I'm not just another ho, that I actually want to be something more. Or maybe, it's too late for him and that's all he wants.. Somehow I see more out of him than that.
I don't know, I guess I just don't really have anyone to turn to right now. I can't stand the frustration. Even Stoner isn't here.. I wonder what happened to her..?
 amuse me i'm horny · Sun Oct 03, 2004 @ 11:34pm · 4 Comments |
